May Verbs

I’m seriously late in the game.  Again.  Well, crisp and clear apologies and onwards and upwards we go.  May has mostly been spent toodling around Paris followed by a swift return of the double Ds (dance and dissertation, don’t you know).  Here’s what I got up to this May:

Watching: Orange is the New Black

Another Netflix cracker.  Different though, because this series has been made and produced exclusively for Netflix (i.e. the show never has, and never will be on regular TV).  Which I like, makes it kinda exclusive.  It basically involves a lot of crazy women running around prison getting up to prison antics.  Its dark, sarcastic and very very funny.  Definitely worth a watch.  (Plus, Season 2 came out yesterday!)

#OITNB

#OITNB

Reading: Literature

Nothing too exciting kids, just about 100 journal articles and 50 books, all working towards my Literature Review for my dissertation.  #MastersLife

Life

Life

Listening To: Regina Spektor

So this is connected to my watch: Orange is the New Black.  The titles include Regina Spektor’s ‘You’ve Got Time’ and since then I’ve been hooked, all over again on her.  My 2009 phase loved Regina and the likes of Imogen Heap, and they’re well and truly back in force.

Babe

Babe

Wearing on my body: Primark PJs

It got to that point in life where you look in your pyjama draw and just think ‘its time for a clear out’.  You know the feeling.  So off I toddled to Primark and got 4 beaut colourful and comfy sets of summer PJs for just £5 each.  I work from home a lot, unashamedly in my PJs, so I was basically investing in work wear.  Sure.

Pit of hell or entrance to heaven?  You decide.

Pit of hell or entrance to heaven? You decide.

Wearing on my face: Benefit High Beam highlighter

The dance world has taught me a few of life’s great make-up lessons, one of which is contouring.  Benefit High Beam highlighter was made for this, and can really change the shape and angles of your face.  I use this highlighter just above and below bronzer to enhance my cheekbones, it also gives me a real glow.

benefit highlighter

Eating: Clean

This month, I’ve been attempting to eat clean (as the new craze would say).  I’m not in any drastic weight loss attempts, it’s just nice to have a colourful and healthy plate full of veggies that keeps me full and does wonders for my hair and skin.  It also makes me feel better about life when I have a Camembert craving.

Fruity Word-Art.

Fruity Word-Art.

Drinking: Bootea

With my ‘eat clean’ and ‘Teatox’ it really looks like I am out on a healthkick?!  No.  Bootea is titled a ‘Teatox’ (they so clever) but has done nothing really of the sort for me.  It tastes mediocre, performs none of the detoxing effects it claims to and the teabag tab is too short.  The best thing about it is the packaging.

Not worth the hype, madness or money.

Not worth the hype, madness or money.

What did you get up to this May?

Empowered

Yesterday I did a bizarre thing, even for me.  I stepped on the scales.  After a period of weighing myself once a week for about 3 years and having the standard mid teenage year’s food demons, about 6 months ago I decided I didn’t care anymore and stopped.  I’m still trying to decide how I feel about what happened.  I was the heaviest I’ve ever been, I am the heaviest I’ve ever been.  I didn’t ‘let myself go’ as such, I just realised that during A Levels, an awful lot of food as revision tools is necessary to see me through.  I’m not fat, I know I’m not fat, the same clothes fit me as they did 6 months ago when I was half a stone lighter and I still feel absolutely fine and confident wearing little shorts and tight tops out in public (just not at the same time).  It’s occurred to me that as well as my body having changed, maybe I’ve changed.  A year ago I would have totally freaked out.  I know immediately it would have been salads and sit ups until I achieved a ‘goal weight’ or an appearance I felt happy with.  But now, I’m absolutely fine.  I finally feel comfortable in my own skin after 3 years of wanting to be better, never being satisfied with the way I am.  Today, I am satisfied.   This is probably one of the most intimate things I have blogged about, without even getting that intimate.  Weight is one of the topics that no matter who you are, what you do, is guaranteed to play on your mind at some point during your life.  Weight playing on my mind is over.  I’m fine.  I feel so fine.  Perhaps in a few months, or a few years I might decide I want to be thinner or more toned, but today, I’m fine.  The next time I decide to change my body it will be for my benefit and nobody else’s.  So today I blog with the knowledge of being happy in myself, my body and who I am.  It’s such an empowering feeling, you should try it.